I connected with Guruji in March of 2023. Before that I had just heard of Him. Then I was lucky enough to get married into a family that had met Guruji. Even though we had Guruji's
swaroop in each of our rooms, conversations about Him were minimal. My in-laws had suffered a great loss and that had understandably tempered their faith. But His presence was undeniable. At times, when I was doing Babaji Prakash or
sewa and offering
ardaas, I would see that Guruji's swaroop had an extreme radiance and a smile. There was also a vision in which I saw Him shower roses on me.
In the month leading up to my connection, I was upset and had severe anxiety. During my evening walks, I resorted to listening to
shabads. One fine day, I chanced upon '
Shukar Kara Tera Guruji'. It gave me immense peace; simultaneously, I began questioning Guruji: He had blessed so many people and performed so many miracles; however, He didn't seem to think that I needed Him. Why didn't He show me His presence? Why didn't He come and bless me? My remonstrances continued.
One day, an insistent thought grew and planted itself in my head. The day I would bring Guruji home via a
satsang all my worries would go away. In fact, I had been telling my in-laws to host a satsang for the past few months, but we couldn't because something or the other kept us busy. To my surprise, this time my in-laws told me that they were planning to do a satsang around Holi. I was very happy. We were discouraged from doing a satsang during festival time because devotees might not be available. But we went ahead.
On the appointed day, we were extremely blessed to receive a
sangat of more than seventy devotees. I had happily decorated the house myself. I also did sewa, and many devotees showered their blessings upon me. A lady devotee told me that it was a pleasure to see me do so much sewa, and I was a pure soul. I could not stop myself from crying and thanked Guruji.
We left His
durbar as is overnight, clearing up the area and removing all the offerings. Guruji came in my sleep in a vision and told me that we had even picked up His glass of water. I thought it was just a dream. My in-laws corrected me. Guruji had come to bless me, they said, and give guidance on how to host a satsang. I felt guilt for days and kept apologizing to Him. A week later, He not only blessed me with the best news of my life, but again came in my vision and showered me with roses.
Ever since, He has become an especially important part of my life and has been guiding me through experiences that have helped me grow.
Five months before March 2023, I had applied for nearly 500 jobs and had no luck. During the first week of May, I was rejected from a job I was interested in and gave up hope. I took my sadness to Guruji and conjectured that this was what He wanted. The subsequent week, the people who had rejected me reached out, saying there had been a change and they would like to hire me. It was the best news I ever got and I was elated. I know it was all because of Guruji!
Then I had another challenge at hand. My notice period at the current company was for two months. I wanted them to curtail this period so that I could go and see my parents, who are settled in Dubai. My employer was adamant and I kept going back and forth between HR and my boss. On a Friday, I told Guruji that see this was my last try. If it worked, great; if not, then that too was ok. I prayed that He do whatever was best for me. Firmly putting my faith behind His divine will, I listened to the
mantra jaap. By 1 pm that day, my notice period had been shortened and the matter resolved in minutes.
I am truly blessed to be connected with Guruji and be a part of His sangat. I know that I will be making mistakes–a lot of them–but under the shelter of His blessings, I can only hope to become a better person.
Thank you for holding my hand, Guruji, and for guiding me. I hope I can live up to these blessings with every passing second of my life.
Akanksha Khullar, a devotee
May 2023