I pray to Ma Saraswati to bless me with kind words and wisdom so that I am able to sing the praises of my beloved father, Guruji.
I got married 16 years ago and moved abroad. After a few years, I had a daughter, a wonderful blessing from Sai Baba, whom I was a devotee of. She gave new meaning to my life. However, she had allergies and faced stomach issues continually. When time came for her schooling, we returned to India. My daughter's health issues redoubled, and she would get sick every week. My husband too faced immense hardship in settling into his job. We visited temples, gurudwaras, saints, priests and Vastu specialists, but could get only some gratification after undertaking their
upayas, or remedies. However, our daughter's health remained doubtful and we mentally troubled.
In 2015, my daughter did not eat food for nine days for no apparent reason. We consulted many doctors, but no medical problem was diagnosed. We were anguished and helpless. Thankfully, Sai Baba blessed her with food on the 10
th day. Thereafter, we consulted a Vastu specialist and changed our house. I developed cervical spondylitis and remained bed-ridden in that house for a year. The specialist suggested we again change house, but the move aggravated the situation. My husband's behaviour changed drastically and for the worse. He stopped spending time with me and my daughter and wanted to leave us to go abroad. I was in deep trouble.
In February of 2020, just around the time Covid was about to strike, a relative came and stayed in our house for two days. My daughter seemed happy in his presence. When he left, he informed us that the toilet seat drainage was blocked. When my husband checked, he found that the water was clean, but something seemed stuck. When we called the plumber, we found that some yellow mustard paste had stuck on to the pipe. My husband felt something was fishy, and his suspicions were confirmed when we found a piece of paper with numbers and mantras written on it hidden underneath our bedroom mattress. We suspected that black magic spells had been cast on our family and stopped interacting with this relative.
Soon my daughter became seriously ill. She was unable to eat food again; during the night, she'd wake up to pass stool frequently and would remain sleepless. I lost it. My husband and I felt aggrieved, clueless, and helpless. Since the Covid lockdown was in place, we were not confident about taking her out to see doctors. Suddenly I began feeling fearful most of the time. For a year, I had to take recourse to anti-depressants.
After a few months, we decided to take her to my hometown. There, my domestic help took us to a pandit. He confirmed that black magic had been done on us. He assisted us in undertaking a upaya, and my daughter could finally get some sleep. But when we returned, my daughter's problems too came back. She became so thin that looking at her would pain me. After a few months, a friend took me to her Maharaj-ji. He gave his
prasad and my daughter's condition improved significantly.
We bought a new house and kept going to Maharaj-ji. However, the relative who did black magic on us tracked us down. No matter where we had shifted to, he was able to visit us three times. Resultantly, I began facing much trouble in my marital life and I had severe quarrels with my husband.
However, God is merciful. He knows our minds and intent and no act, good or bad, escapes His all-seeing eye. In the middle of 2023, things began to turn around. We had been planning for a second child for a long time. We consulted a doctor here, and she prescribed a fertility regimen. My husband was not interested in a second child, but when I got pregnant in June 2023, his attitude changed. My doctor gave me hormone injections since my reports were not normal. It was then that during an ultrasound we heard our baby's heart beats. We were really happy. My husband began loving and caring for me again.
We had to go to an ultrasound consultant during the third month of my pregnancy. The monitor showed no heartbeat, and I lost my baby. My faith shattered. I was unable to turn to God because I could not endure any more sorrow. My mother tried to console me. I told her that I had lost all interest in life, that everything was finished, and that I could not turn to Sai Baba now. My mother asked me to read or watch content about Guruji.
It turned out to be a blessing in disguise. I saw three
satsangs related to Guruji on YouTube. To my astonishment, all satsangs related to conceiving a child or miscarriages. I kept watching the satsangs, and a deep relaxation came over me. I told my husband and my daughter and husband started worshipping Guruji in no time.
I feel Guruji's presence in my home at all times; He has blessed our house with many
swaroops. He has made my broken nest into a home and reassembled the broken parts of my life into a healing whole. I still face problems, but Guruji Maharaj is supporting me in every aspect of my life. As a result, I have overcome intransigent loneliness and got back my life.
Now I have no expectations from my life except from Guruji. And He has blessed me by making me attend satsangs in my city. Every satsang has taken me closer to Him. He has protected us from black magic in His own unique and powerful ways. One day my daughter and I returned from a satsang to find bloody foot marks in front of my house. My house had been locked. Guruji gave me a message that night that He was ridding my house of all negativity. We even found dead butterflies around the house.
We were blessed to host a satsang in our house. That night, I saw a cremation ground in my dream vision. A few things had been dug in that area by our relative and a Muslim tantrik. In my vision, I saw Guruji and Kali Maa burning down that cremation ground. Now Guruji gives us dreams regarding removal of black magic in separate places and ways. I have understood now that my husband's troubles regarding his job were the least of what could have happened.
Our Guruji is our precious jewel. If He is holding our hand, we have to grab it tightly. We have to surrender ourselves completely to His feet.
Whatever He wills is for our sake and is the best decision for us.
The blessing is that we have Guruji in our lives. He has given light to our lives. We can love Him, praise Him, and relish His presence. Can there be a God like Guruji? He is our lifeline, our angel, our father, our saviour, and our God. A million thanks to Him. This prayer of faith often comes to my mind:
"Thir ghar baiso harjan pyaare,
Satguru tumhare kaaj savaare"
A devotee
January 2024