The past two years have brought Guruji's blessings in my life to the fore. In May of 2021 I was staying in our village with my father. When I returned to Delhi I had Covid symptoms, while my father tested positive in the village. I was scared: I had communicated with Guruji mentally and He had been telling me for a month that I would get Covid. If I had Covid, I said to Guruji, I should be sent back to the village. Guruji managed affairs such that I went back and, as it turned out, tested positive on the 18
th of May.
I went to the doctor in great fear, internally praying to Guruji, beseeching Him that my oxygen saturation level not come down. When the level was checked, it was at 100%. At the village, I couldn't bring myself to drink the water as it tasted different and I wondered how I'd gulp down my medicines. From the very next day, without my initiating it, bottled water was available at home. My health began improving soon after.
Soon after Guruji told me, "
Tu tan negative ho gayi" (Your [Covid] result is negative). So I asked my uncle to get my Covid test done, but he wanted to defer the test till we left the village. Since there was a Covid test camp the very next day at the village, I got myself tested–and the result was negative. It was the 27
th of May; Guruji had made me well in a week! My father too tested negative after some days, and Guruji granted him good health. Guruji had looked after everything and listened to all my prayers.
Blessings in the classroom
Covid meant that my Class XII classes took place online for the entire year. Guruji had told me that both my terms would be offline and that I should study. In response, I had requested Guruji to take care of my studies. I didn't understand anything during the online classes, but had full faith that Guruji would do the best for me. People thought that I would not pass. Before the result came out, Guruji told my sister: "
Tu aiven darda rehnda si aa vekh teri gall ban gayi hai." (You fear for no reason; what you wished for is done.) When the result came out on 22
nd July, I got a respectable 67%.
There is no way I could have got such marks without Guruji's grace. Guruji was with me throughout my studies. One day, when I was doing Physics work in the lab, I felt a bit sad and dizzy. I mentally told Guruji that I was not feeling well. Our school premises are in a Gurudwara, where
kadha prasad is made every day. Students get it only on special occasions. That day prasad was distributed in class. The woman who was giving out the prasad came up to me and said: "Aaj tumhare liye specially layi hoon."(I have brought the prasad for you specially.) I knew it was Guruji who was signaling His presence and taking care of me.
I wear a pendant with Guruji's
swaroop on it. In July of 2022, it broke, and two days later, I dreamt of a bull chasing me down outside my school, saying I will kill you. I pleaded to be spared, and the bull turned into a woman. I repeated my entreaty to the woman and begged to be allowed to go home. Somehow, I escaped. That same day, my sister dreamt that she answered a phone call on my behalf with the voice at the other end of the line telling her that I had died. In her dream, my sister came to see me and found that I was fine. Later, Guruji communicated to me that He had blessed me with a new life and asked me to wear His locket.
[Following section added November 2023]
Guruji holds my hand in and out of college
I had to apply for the Common University Entrance Test (CUET) in 2022 to pursue studies after Class XII. The CUET was set to take place in two slots. I was slated to give the exam in the first slot, but there was a technical glitch at the exam centre and I was in the second slot. Guruji was behind the postponement because I knew I wouldn't have cleared CUET in the first slot. At the exam centre, the seat on my left was empty; all the rest were occupied–this signalled to me that Guruji was present. I hadn't studied for the exam, but Guruji came to my rescue and I cleared the exam. Then the Delhi University first list showed I had got admission in the first round of the allocation. I knew with my whole heart that my admission would not have been possible without Guruji.
On November of 2022, I began attending college, bussing to the campus. I was waiting for the bus one day and was getting late for class. I took a rickshaw. My phone was in my hand and I was repeatedly checking time. One person on a nearby bike scolded me, cautioning that my phone could easily be snatched from my hand. The following day I got to know that a classmate's phone had been stolen on the road I frequented. Guruji's opportune warning had saved me.
Soon I began using the Delhi Metro. It was a challenge for me to get on the escalator at the subway stations. The junctions had pathways with both escalators and stairs. On the first day my father was with me and I used the stairs at a junction. When I began travelling on my own, I could not find the entrance which had both the escalator and stairs at the junction where I changed trains. Every day I used the escalator after taking help from passers-by. Those who helped me were exceedingly kind and never made me feel dumb. Then I took courage and mentally told Guruji that I will not ask for help. I will hold Your hand and go to the escalator. I found I could easily use the escalator easily since that day. Thank you so much, Guruji Maharaj, for always helping me. After I could use the escalator, I found the junction which had the stairs and the escalator both.
Winning elections and an internship by His grace
The divine presence has always been around me, even in college. The college premises have a Hanuman Mandir, which makes me feel very blessed. Seeing it the first time was overwhelming as since childhood, I have a connection with Hanuman-ji. I used to ask for things I wanted from Hanuman-ji.
In college I stood for department elections along with three other, more capable candidates. Most students preferred the other candidates, but when the poll results came out, I was the shocking winner, elected as the first-year member of my department's society. Students wondered aloud how I won because nobody voted for me; I know it was only Guruji's vote that made me win. A year later, I again stood for elections for the post of secretary. I didn't even ask students to vote. I reasoned that if victory was good for me, Guruji will grant it and if not, Guruji won't. By Guruji Maharaj's
kripa, I won. Thank you, Guruji!
In my second year of college, I began looking for internships. I joined an NGO, but left it on Guruji's
hukum. Other internships I applied for did not work out. I would get shortlisted for the interview but not get selected. I felt demotivated after facing a spate of rejections and stopped applying. I have always prayed to Guruji to not give me things that take me away from Him, and that He grant me only that which leads me to Him. So I invested faith in my belief that Guruji would grant me an internship whenever the right time came.
I applied for another internship, and the company gave me a task which Guruji made me complete. At the subsequent interview, I was selected! I am thankful to Guruji because I know it would not have been possible without Guruji's grace. I soon realized that I was not able to devote much time to Guruji because I had become busy. I felt guilt. Guruji made me realize it was His grace that had given me tasks I had to pursue, so I should continue doing them as Guruji's
sewa. Now I always keep talking to Guruji about everything and do my daily chores with a sense of His presence.
I can't ever thank Guruji, but Guruji knows my heart. I am grateful to Guruji for all the things in my life and thank Him for always being with me and taking care of me. I am sorry to Him for all the mistakes I have made. I realize I am no one and I am not doing anything. Guruji is the doer. I request Guruji to guide me to the path that leads to Him. I am nothing without Guruji. As the song in praise of the Lord has it:
Karte ho tum, Guruji, mera namm ho raha hai, Aapki kripa se sab kam ho raha hai. (You are the doer, Guruji, yet my name is a taken / Your grace takes care of all my affairs.)
Thank you so much, Guruji, for everything, and sorry for my mistakes. I love you, Guruji. Jai Guruji!
Ayushi Bhati, a devotee
November 2023