I want to share my
satsang on the occasion of my baby turning a year old. People who trust Guruji understand that Guruji is really there for us. He is not only Our God, but the soul of our life.
I got married in year 2011 and began visiting Guruji's Mandir in 2012. I had only heard from my father that He was Mahashiva. I surrendered to Him effortlessly. Ever since then, every problem that arrives in life comes bundled with a solution. I know Guruji stands in front of my bad karmas and of any of His devotees'.
In 2015 I was pregnant. But the baby was not growing as expected. During a checkup, doctors found the infant had no heartbeat. They advised an abortion. It was September of that year and a huge depression settled over me. In the first month of the next year, an unexpected piece of news came: I had to go for a medical exam at the Canadian embassy as part of our permanent residency (PR) application for that country. I had wanted to migrate to Canada and realised that if we had become parents earlier, we would have waited years to apply for the much-desired PR.
We moved to Canada in 2017. I again felt the maternal urge to have a baby. The issue was complicated as I had developed severe polycystic ovarian disease, which made it hard to conceive again.
The doctor looking after me in Canada asked me to go for a tube test, which is a fertility test for females. Anxiety gripped me; I found myself sobbing in front of my mother and sister. The result came that day and it was negative. My sister, who did not believe in Guruji then, was perturbed. Her deep concern touched Guruji's ever-merciful heart. She woke up the following morning to report that she had a vision of Guruji in her dream. She argued with Guruji, she told us. My sister pointed out to Guruji that though I worshipped him a lot, he hadn't given me the happiness I desired for a long time. Guruji then spoke those divine words of blessings to her: "
Ja aish kar: Kalyan kitta."
I was delighted even as I was shocked that Guruji had given
darshan to a disbeliever.
That very week I too had darshan of Guruji in my dream. That night I had a severe stomach pain; it was as if someone was tearing my tummy apart. I opened my eyes because of the pain. At that moment, I saw Guruji inside my room, wearing an orange
chola. I was about to touch Him when He disappeared.
I woke up in surprise. I told my husband and family of the blessings I had received and insisted that my husband let me take a pregnancy test. He was sure that things wouldn't turn around as doctors had ruled that my childbearing time had gone. Further, we would need to take approval from a doctor for another tube test. But I was confident that Guruji's darshans for my sister and me meant He had divinely intervened. By Friday, I had convinced my husband. The following morning, I checked the pregnancy strip. Seeing two beautiful lines gave me goosebumps. I checked with the doctor, and he confirmed that I was indeed pregnant.
The disbelievers in my family did not know how to accept that Guruji had indeed come to me and my sister.
I gave birth naturally to a healthy baby in March of 2018 with Guruji's grace. Guruji had earlier showed me the manner of the baby's delivery and, of course, it was exactly similar. While I was about to push the baby out, I heard a song: "
Guruji aun lage ne." I never heard it again.
My life has changed for the better since I came to Guruji. Trust Guruji completely. Don't doubt Him even for a single second.
Isha Jerath, a devotee
September 2023