I need Guruji's blessings all the time. I am nothing without His guidance and blessings. And He has always given me more than what I asked for. Before I can thank Him for one thing, He gives me a thousand other reasons for being grateful.
He blessed me with a high percentage, 92.2%, in the Class 12
th board examinations and with a good percentile in the JEE Main paper. Thanks to Him, I got admission in the BTech course (for Artificial Intelligence and Data Science) in Guru Gobind Singh Indraprastha University, Delhi.
He takes care of even the minutest problems which we may overlook; for Him; Himalayan adventures and everyday challenges are the same.
To cite an example which might appear insignificant: Last year, my college exams were to finish on December 26
th, and my exam center was far off. I gave my exam and a day later it rained heavily. Had it poured on exam day, I would have a hard time appearing for the paper.
Another: Guruji had told me through a
satsang that "
walk sabse changi cheez hai" (walking is the best exercise), but I invariably find it hard to get up in the morning, and the excessive humidity here is a further disincentive–even though I need to exercise as I am a bit chubby. (I apologise to Him.) However, Guruji has devised two solutions: At home, I have to clean up the house and the washrooms. And outside, as Guruji would have it, our classes have shifted to the fourth floor for the second semester. Which means I have no option but to walk! That too in a nice pair of good-looking formal high heels. My mother was not ready to buy a pair since she thought I would not be able to handle them. But Guruji knew I wanted them and on 14
th January 2025 (Makar Sankranti) I got a new pair.
In preparation for college, I had to go to the market to buy necessary items, such as a lunch box and a water bottle. I was feeling ill, but as I remembered Him, I got well within minutes. I felt He was with me during the market visit: I could get everything at an affordable price. Thanks to Him, I had new clothes to wear to college. But the syllabus was another matter. It was vast and difficult. I struggled with it.
During the first semester, I had a ton of workload–multiple assignments, practical files, mid-term papers, final practical exams and what not. He helped me go through them all. My internal papers did not go very well, but thanks to His blessings I got full marks in each one for all the subjects. My end-term result is yet to come, but I believe that He will bless me and will ignore all my mistakes, though I seem not to gain much even after studying very hard.
Guruji had inspired me to read about the life of the eighth Sikh Guru, Shri Har Krishan Sahib-ji. I had also started reading the
Shiva Puran and
Ram Charita Manas. But there are too many demands being made on my time. I need His help to set a schedule that works smoothly and grandly, giving me recuperative, meditative, and devotional time for myself. I have full faith that since He has chosen this course of study and of life for me, I will be able to complete it successfully–and triumph.
In darshan, I tightly hug Guruji
My faith derives from His grace, which not only saves me but shows me that as His
sangat and devotee, I have a divine connection with him. One morning of 31
st July 2024, found me very emotional. I was crying in front of Guruji and wished to hug Him. I closed my eyes as I cried and imagined hugging His
swaroop. At that very moment, I saw that Guruji was really present and I was hugging Him tightly. Guruji repeatedly asked me to relax my hold ("
Kamliye chadd menu, chadd menu"), but I didn't leave Him until He had kept His hand on my head. I can never thank Him enough for blessing me.
There was more to come. We had listened to a satsang which indicated that Guruji would visit our house on Thursday (
Guruvar) along with His sangat. And indeed Guruji came to our home. That day, we were doing a small satsang at home when I noticed a patch of water on a wall. It turned into the imprint of Guruji's Lotus Feet. Soon, Ma Lakshmi's Lotus Feet and a petite image of Lord Ganesha's
vahan (vehicle or mount),
Mushak Raj, could be seen on the wall. My mother noticed Shivji and Parvati Ma's Lotus Feet on the same patch of water. She also noticed Lord Shiva's attendants (
ganas) and the blessed mouse. I can't express how blessed my family and I were feeling.
A day later, it was Shivratri. He blessed us again. We saw an Aum and 'Ram' on the same patch of water. I also saw the image of a peacock. I went to a temple in the morning and offered
jal to the Shiva linga. By His grace, I also made a beautiful
rangoli of Lakshmi Ma's Lotus Feet, a
swastik, Aum, and Ek Onkar with flowers.
Guruji saves me through satsangs
Guruji has saved my life multiple times. In the month I was to give my exams, my mother decided to take me to the Bade Mandir. Her visit was prompted by a scare. She had heard a satsang in which a devotee described how His arm had been torn apart from the elbow and how Guruji had helped him recover.
She felt I was in some danger and so we visited the Mandir on December 14
th. On 17
th December, I had a paper to give and set out on an e-rickshaw for the exam centre. As I sat on it, the little finger of my right hand got a cut. It bled a bit. When I informed my mom of the bleed, she thanked Guruji. He had converted a big tragedy into a minor injury.
One day, I reached the Metro station to see a pigeon die in front of me. I felt Guruji had intervened to sort out an impending disaster. Guruji had earlier indicated to my mother that He would take my death upon Himself.
Then there was the night I had a severe stomach-ache. As I turned to sleep, my left arm and left area of the chest began paining very much. So much so that my hand swelled, and I cried out in pain. My arm was better by morning, but the stomach pain continued. I repeatedly asked Guruji to tell me what the problem was. The answer came via a satsang I listened to on my mobile. A devotee narrated that he had stomach issues, which turned out to be a tumor. I was afraid that I might have a tumor, too. I wanted a remedy and asked Guruji for help. Like a big brother He was there for me. I was soon hearing another satsang in which I got the remedy. I am much better now. The pain comes up occasionally, but I know He will fix it soon.
In fact, for me, Guruji's grace and healing comes through satsangs. My mother often insists that I should listen to
shabad gurbani, but I do not enjoy it. I like to listen to old sangat's satsangs–and I get my answers there!
Guruji takes care of my small desires, too. When I wanted to celebrate new year, Guruji hitched a divine experience to my mundane yet heartfelt wish.
To mark the occasion, a cake was obtained, and at 10 in the last night of 2024, my family and I sat together. We joined a live telecast of a devotional program on YouTube. The spiritual leader told us to close our eyes and chant with full concentration. As I did so, I saw a vision: I was sitting in front of Guruji, looking up adoringly as He ate cake. Then I saw a snake emerge, the mushak (Lord Ganesha's vahan) and finally a peacock. I saw myself giving Guruji a rose flower. He gave the flower back to me after removing all the thorns. Then I saw Sai Baba and myself, a small baby in His hands; finally, I beheld my maternal grandfather, Nanu. I have always loved my Nanu, and I felt happy.
Thanks to Guruji, I enjoyed all my year-end holidays. I went for outings and ate yummy food.
Thank you so much, Guruji, for providing me with not only what I asked for but often even more than what I asked for. Please bless me always and take care of all things. I will always remain your younger daughter. You will always be my guiding light and more. Lots of love, Guruji!
Katyayni Bajaj, a devotee
January 2025