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Light of Divinity

one should avoid asking Guruji for anything, because though he
may give what is wished for, it may not provide us satisfaction. True
satisfaction and happiness comes only when our beloved Guruji
gives on his own. Despite this knowledge we are tempted to ask for
Guruji’s mercy whenever we are in trouble (we are only human).
And, like I said earlier, he is kind enough to shower his blessings
on our request. My wife, son and I began attending Guruji’s satsang
at the same time. My wife and son came to believe in him quickly; I
had doubts.

An attempt at conditional acceptance

On the second-third day of my attendance, I made a mental challenge
to Guruji: “I will accept you as my guru only if you can get me back
my Rs. 5 lakh which have been locked up with a businessman in
Chandigarh for the last three years.” But after a few more days of
satsangs, I felt I had done a great wrong in laying down a condition
for Guruji over such a trivial thing like money. I then repeatedly
prayed to him, apologizing and telling him that I did not want his
help in getting back my money. A week later, while I was on a duty
trip to Bangalore, the Chandigarh businessman called up to say he
was ready to return the money and pay Rs. 30,000 as damages.
Guruji Maharaj is great!

Guruji’s fragrance

Initially, every time we entered Guruji’s temple my wife and son
would get a strong whiff of Guruji’s fragrance. I never smelt it.
I suppose I was not a true believer. One evening, about a month
or so from the time we started attending the satsangs, I was lying
in bed while my wife had gone to sleep. I was looking at Guruji’s
photo on the wall and feeling guilty for continuing to have doubts
when everything I had seen and heard was in Guruji’s favour. I kept
looking at Guruji’s photo and fervently prayed to Guruji to forgive
me. I promised to be his true bhakt. I had never prayed with such
sincerity ever before in my life. Suddenly from my pillow, I got a
strong fragrance, which my wife confirmed was the same as she got

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