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Ek takia bharosa

tere charno da

Only your lotus feet are my refuge, O Lord

IHAD to quit my well-paid job because of strange reasons. I knew
that since I had good experience, it would not be difficult for me
to find another. I kept on applying for jobs—to no avail.

I faced successive failures for four-six months. I lost my confidence
and faith in God and faced social humiliation. Frustration and
dissatisfaction began creeping up and my bank balance started
reducing. I went to the extent of telling my wife to buy some
pesticide and end our lives. I knew it was a bad decision, but I was
left with no option.

At this juncture, I received a phone call from my friend. On his
advice, I went to Guruji. I saw a saint sitting and talking to the
people around him, shabads were being played, tea and langar were
being served. I went to Guruji after langar to seek his blessings and
returned home. I did not say anything to Guruji, keeping to my
friend’s advice that one need not ask Guruji for anything, since he
knows everything.

I thought that I had gone to Guruji in pain and was returning
in pain—without any cure. If I could not express my pain to him,
how would he come to know what I need and if I cannot ask for
what I need, then what was the point of going to him? My friend
insisted that I go again, but I refused and told him: “Guruji cannot
do anything because I have not told him my problem. Being an

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