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Light of Divinity

for the sangat. After two years, I was delayed. That day, devotees told
me, Guruji asked about me frequently, wondering if I had come or
not at least 10 times. I was stunned.

He also happened to be in a great mood. He was prophesying
world events and trends and kept talking for hours together. What
devotees heard that day make for today’s newspaper headlines. I
folded my hands and after taking his permission to query him,
I asked: “Guruji, am I that unlucky that you don’t give me your
photo?” He said: “You don’t need a photo; I reside in your heart.” The
remark struck me: I realized that he was God, for only God resides
in our hearts. But he did give me a small snap, saying it was his ID.
I always keep it with me. I would always keep the snap under my
pillow while sleeping, or pin it on my dress. I felt it protected me
from evil spirits.

In the bedroom, I kept Guruji’s photograph and did my puja before
it. In time, two living eyes emerged from the photo. They were big
and beautiful. I never felt afraid of them. I kept asking them whether
they were Brahma, Vishnu or Shiva and they would just flicker. They
also began to emit light. These divine eyes were to me living proof
that Lord Shiva had incarnated as Guruji.

Before meeting Guruji

Before I had gone to Guruji, I had met Baba Charan Das, the head of
the Radha Swamis. I met the baba through a friend of mine, Farrell
Brener of the US. A Radha Swami follower, Brener had come to
India to do research on parapsychology. He wanted me to meet Baba
Charan Das. I insisted that he first go to Hoshiarpur, where I would
ask questions of the Bhrigu Samhita (written by the seer Bhrigu, this
book is said to contain the birth charts of all the people born [and
yet-to-be born] and predictions are made based on it), with me. This
was my way of checking him out. A reading from the samhita, which
I utterly believed in, said that this was a lucky day for both of us.
The samhita had earlier predicted that I was a goddess whose only
purpose in life or in coming to earth, if you will, was to gain moksha
or salvation.

Convinced that I was not being taken in, I met Baba Charan
Das. He used to give naam to people. At that time my mother was
seriously ill with Parkinson’s disease. I made it conditional that I

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