Page 50 - Light of Divinity

Like a mother, he

holds us close to

his bosom

SO MUCH has happened since my family and I had Guruji’s first
darshan. Before then my life was in a mess, my father was in a
coma and had been hospitalized for a month and a half. Being a
doctor, I was well aware of all the complications that could arise and
hence could not bring myself to leave his bedside.

Then came a day when my frustration rose and I could take it no
more: everything seemed to be going wrong, finances were at an all-
time low, and every passing minute trying to keep my father alive
was an ordeal. My sister and brothers were also trying their best.
Nothing seemed to work. I was feeling dejected. Fighting back tears,
I wondered why God didn’t come to my family and rescue us. I had
always believed in him, loved him and trusted him with all my heart.
So, why wasn’t he responding?

I needed to meet someone with whom I could share all my sorrows
without having to utter a word; someone who would watch over me;
someone who would give me strength to face reality and bail me out
whenever I was in trouble. I needed him.

One night I came home but could not sleep. Around 3 am, my
brother Shiv rushed into the room and gave us some prasad. Shiv

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