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shakes instead. Hardly a week passed when Guruji
suddenly landed up at our house. He went straight to
my bedroom and sat on my bed. “What are all those
boxes and medicines on your table?” he asked me.
“Guruji, I'm taking those to lose some weight.” I said.
“Really? You can lose weight like this? Give me your
capsules and shake to drink also.” I went to the kitchen
and quickly made him a glass. He ate the capsules too.
That day he never mentioned anything but after a few
days when I went to Delhi to meet him, he told me that
by drinking the shake and eating the capsules that day
he had taken all the negative effects on to himself and
that if I do not stop taking these things my kidneys
would eventually fail. He gave me his leftover water in
his glass and told me to drink it. “Go home and check
your weight, I have made you lose 2 kgs.” Sure enough,
as I reached home and weighed myself, I was 2 kgs
lighter.

Many times Guruji would take on a disciple's illness
on to himself and all night would remain in pain. It
would break my heart to see him in such a condition.
My mother and I would feel helpless on such occasions.
Knowing he was powerful and could do anything, I
would often wonder why he can't just cure someone.
Why does he have to take things on to himself and
suffer? I got my answer much later when one day he
told me that by taking the pain onto himself he wants
the disciple to realize the true worth of a guru. He
wants us to realize what all a Guru does for his

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