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Light of Divinity

During my second or third darshan of Guruji, he made us sit after
langar. The flow of his love for the sangat is so strong that I was in
total bliss and forgot everything: all your problems just fade away
and he makes your life so easy and simple that you feel like living
your life and being in his protection forever.

He is my ultimate in every way; he comes first in my life because
I cannot and I do not want to see anything beyond him. The trinity
is one and he is the divine power who has come down to save us. To
be able to reach him is a miracle by itself. We need him in our lives
and the only thing which we can give him is our unconditional love
and faith. For us to be with him shows that in our past lives we were
a part of him and we belong to him. That is why in this life we are
together as well. We should see the sangat as part of one family.

I have been in contact with Guruji only for a short while but I feel
and realize that every time I faced death, he has pulled me out of it.

Back in 1994, my husband got involved in an extra-marital affair.
I felt shattered and cheated upon, yet I thought one day everything
would be fine. I had had a love marriage. In fact, I am a Hindu
married to a Muslim and I converted to Islam. But in 2006 my
husband married his mistress; yet, believe me, I am more at peace
with myself. For that peace to come, Guruji intervened and stopped
me from self-destruction, for I was in a state of mind where I could
have done anything except committing suicide. In 1998, I went
through a major surgery that lasted seven-eight hours. After the
surgery, I was sinking and Guruji saved me.

Recently, around Holi time, my foot got blisters and somehow
they turned gangrenous. The wound began smelling foul. When
the doctor examined my foot, he said the toe had to be amputated.
That day was a Thursday and my day for visiting Guruji is a Friday.
Needless to say without his agyaa, I would not allow the doctor to
operate upon me. Guruji said it would be all right; just get a minor
incision made. And that is all it took to be cured. In about a month I
was fine. I still have to know of anyone being saved from gangrene.

At times I feel guilty that I have been so careless with myself and
have not taken proper care of the body. If I knew that one day I
would be in front of my master, I would have tried to take care of
myself and not burden Guruji with my illnesses because he takes all
your suffering on himself. I feel so helpless when he suffers for us.
What can we do?

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